Thursday, January 1, 2009

No Motivation

I have so much to, info, stuff stuff stuff. But I have had no motivation to post...anything. I am posting right now just to let you know that Baby J is beginning to feel better, and goes back to the doctor tomorrow. I am hoping he weighs more than 13# 11oz...we would like to see him at 14#. It still wouldn't be where he was at 4 months, but it would be a decent gain. He is eating like a champ, so here's hoping! Our bathroom is coming...well...slowly, but it will be so nice when it is done. My dad and #1 are doing a nice job. #1 goes to work at 3:30 each night, so it cuts down on the actual amount of time they have to do work. I guess I have no motivation because I have felt really tired and really cranky the past few days. I hope my mom and dad don't regret coming here, I feel like I keep biting people's heads off. Nothing seems to be going right and I can't do anything right. I think I almost need to get back into a regular routine. #1 and I have been trying to decide since Baby J was born if we want (I think I do...well normally I do) more kids and whether we should try another horrible pregnancy or adopt. We still aren't even thinking about it seriously, just tossing it around. The past few days I am feeling like I should be done because even with 2 extra adults around I can't seem to take care of 2 kids. I even had a dream the other night that I went to the kids' doctor and I was pregnant and they took Baby J away because they said I wasn't allowed to have 2 babies at once. Nice, huh? Hopefully I pull out of this funk soon because I have to get our Christmas tree down!


Kim said...

Hang in there girl! It's always hectic when there is (re)construction going on in your home while you are living in it! Also, having extra people (even when it is special family you love to have around) are in your home, life is never routine! Take a deep breath, go for a walk, and take time to talk to God. He cares about EVERY little detail of your life and you can trust Him with your thoughts. He is bigger than our feelings! I'll be praying for you and am glad to hear that Jack is a little better. Keep us posted!

CrysRich said...

I'm sorry you're in a slump right now, Jenney. You are a wonderful wife and mother, daughter, sister, name it. I may have had children before you, but I look up to you in so many ways as a mother. I cannot imagine taking care of others children on top of my own two. I also cannot imagine living so far from my mom. Keep your head up. Luckily, family loves us no matter what, even when we're grouchy. :o)