No Motivation

I have so much to post...pictures, info, stuff stuff stuff. But I have had no motivation to post...anything. I am posting right now just to let you know that Baby J is beginning to feel better, and goes back to the doctor tomorrow. I am hoping he weighs more than 13# 11oz...we would like to see him at 14#. It still wouldn't be where he was at 4 months, but it would be a decent gain. He is eating like a champ, so here's hoping! Our bathroom is coming...well...slowly, but it will be so nice when it is done. My dad and #1 are doing a nice job. #1 goes to work at 3:30 each night, so it cuts down on the actual amount of time they have to do work. I guess I have no motivation because I have felt really tired and really cranky the past few days. I hope my mom and dad don't regret coming here, I feel like I keep biting people's heads off. Nothing seems to be going right and I can't do anything right. I think I almost need to get back into a regular routine. #1 and I have been trying to decide since Baby J was born if we want (I think I do...well normally I do) more kids and whether we should try another horrible pregnancy or adopt. We still aren't even thinking about it seriously, just tossing it around. The past few days I am feeling like I should be done because even with 2 extra adults around I can't seem to take care of 2 kids. I even had a dream the other night that I went to the kids' doctor and I was pregnant and they took Baby J away because they said I wasn't allowed to have 2 babies at once. Nice, huh? Hopefully I pull out of this funk soon because I have to get our Christmas tree down!